Friday, November 20, 2015


Thanksgiving is the result of genuine humility. I am more thankful to God and His unlimited grace toward me today, at this time in my life, than I ever have been. I have been through some difficult times in the past 6 years and some decisions I made changed my life forever. Only the Lord Jesus Christ could make my life meaningful after that chaos. 

When God brought me to that place of total dependence on Him and I recognized it, finally, I turned a corner and got on the correct path in my spiritual life. 

Despite the heart wrenching struggle, as soon as I acknowledged my part in it all, confessed my sin in the situation, He was faithful and just to forgive me of my sins and I was able to return to Him, He never left me. 

I lost so much that is meaningful, however, I gained the spiritual life I never imagined I could ever have. I am thankful for His love and grace, there is no doubt that it endures forever. 

Wednesday, November 18, 2015


Satan is the author of confusion, evil abounds on a global scale never before seen. I don't know if that's the reason why I feel especially poignant today, I just feel a little down. Do you ever feel sad for no apparent reason? I ask that question because I don't know if all persons in the universe feel a pain they cannot pinpoint on occasion, I just know what my soul suffers from. 

The Christian's relationship with the Savior is unique in every way. I feel guilty at times in my walk with Christ if I feel mental anguish, especially for no apparent reason. I tend to think I shouldn't ever feel that way. What I shouldn't feel is guilty. The pain or sadness isn't the sin, the guilt is. My sin nature imposes that guilt on my soul, Christ doesn't condemn me for feeling sad and not knowing why, He died on the cross for the shame and condemnation. Why do I impose the feeling of disapproval onto myself and believe for one second this is from my Savior? Ugh, I know, it's twisted, as the bible states in Jeremiah 17:9:

 "The heart is more deceitful than all else and is desperately sick; Who can understand it?" Well, that's an understatement. However, I can, in the power of the Spirit, nip it in the bud according to 2 Corinthians 10:5:

"We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ." 

Already I feel better just quoting this verse, it's not the sadness I need to take captive it's the guilt associated with the emotion that needs to be seized. That's where the daily dose of Bible study comes in. It's not only our weapon against Satan, it's the critic of EVERY single one of our thoughts and intentions according to Hebrews 4:12. 

As Christians, we ALL need to be spiritually fed, daily. Jesus Christ quoted Deuteronomy 8:3 to Satan, in the wilderness  to combat Satan, it's recorded in Matthew 4:4:


This tells the believer how important scripture is to us, it is more important than physical food. We need God's Word in order to be in control of our sin nature. My sadness doesn't violate God's standard, the guilt does, as it's a slap in the face of grace, and Gods word is the answer.  

Like new born babies need to be fed multiple times a day to thrive, Christians need the Word of God on a daily basis, sometimes multiple times a day, to thrive and grow in the Christian way of life. Here are three verses out of many verses of scripture that validate this principle: 

   1 Peter 2:2 "Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation-"

  Matthew 4:4 "But he answered, 'Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God. '"

  2 Timothy 3:16 "All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness."

Just by writing this blog and searching the Scripture's for this article has eased my malaise. This beautiful verse just popped into my head, I'll share from Psalm 119:105: 

"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path." 

I know the Savior wants my path to be free of guilt that so often can accompany suffering, sadness and pain and we will all suffer from in this temporal life, but the illegitimate "feeling" of guilt, a sin which is in total opposition to grace, is really what needs to be cast off. Growing in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior will only serve to make us aware of the hideous effects self-condemnation can have on our spiritual life. 

Tears are stinging my eyes with gratitude toward the Lord Jesus Christ and the complete healing power of His Word. I know He is true to His word not because I experience it, but because He exalts His Word above His own name. 

Ah, to be able to suffer with joy and not with guilt, that's what I'm pondering today and it's pretty poignant. 

Monday, November 16, 2015


I started Ashworth College last week to study to be a travel agent. I have completed six lessons and six tests, I have aced all of them. I have to say, I was not a very good student back in the day, I'm a whole lot better at the age of 52. 

Discipline is number one and concentration is the next. I am an avid Bible student. I know being a devoted student of God's word has helped me develop better academic skills and discipline than I ever had when I was younger. The fact that it takes a great amount of humility to learn the word of God has made it easier to use those learning skills in the secular arena too. 

Every time I study a new lesson I can't help but wonder what God has in store for me in this whole journey. Travel includes a journey and the spiritual life is a journey too. We shall see what this whole thing means as it unfolds. I love it, I love Him. 

Thursday, November 12, 2015


At 52 years young, I am embarking on a new career path and I have decided to take a journey into the travel business. I am going to school to become a home based travel agent. I wonder, with excitement, in what niche the Lord will carve out for me within the industry. 

I started today with my online courses. It should take about 5 months and then I take a test to be able to plan trips for myself and others! I can't wait to plan fantastic itineraries to experience. 

This magnificent globe is our Lord's creation, there is so much beauty to see and so many cultures to explore. My personal goal (if the Lord allows) is to fill up my passport. I will never travel alone God is with me wherever I go! Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the Lord your God is the one who goes with you. He will not fail you or forsake you."

Wednesday, November 11, 2015


"He said naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I shall return there. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord." Job 1:21. Job was pressured beyond anything I could ever imagine, he lost everything, yet he humbled himself in the sight of the Lord. Loss is designed to teach us humility and this is where grace comes in.

I am in the midst of suffering due to a loss that it has changed my life and my relationship with my Lord and Savior. I continue to pray that this loss will be temporary, the Lord hasn't fixed it, I don't know if He will. I do know Job 1:21 is true, "The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away", which brings my attention to the application of 2 Corinthians 12:9 and the fact I know this verse is true, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Because of these words I can live with His decision and be at peace with it.  

When the loss became emotionally more than I could bear I cried out to the Lord, acknowledged my part in the circumstances leading up to the loss with humility, and in that moment was a turning point in my relationship with Jesus Christ. This moment redefined my faith of 47 years, yes, it took me 47 years to finally understand with clarity, the meaning of 1 Corinthians 12:9. Grace is the only reason I exist. Grace is non meritorious work of the Lord Jesus Christ, I don't deserve it and I cannot earn it, it's based on who and what He is. Thank God for that.

Understanding grace is imperative to the life of the Christian. Grace is what makes us able to demonstrate Christ to others, grace makes it possible to forgive others as well as ourselves and grace eliminates all condemnation and guilt. Salvation begins and ends with the grace of Christ, as it say's in Ephesians 2:4-9 "But, God being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in our transgressions, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up with Him, and seated us with Him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the ages to come He might show the surpassing riches of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of words, so that no one may boast." 

If this loss is never recovered in time it is because God, in His infinite grace and wisdom, has allowed it, therefore I must endure it. His word is His promise and God keeps His promises. His unfailing grace is sufficient to get me through. Being brought to my spiritual knees was the best thing that ever happened, I'm even thankful for the suffering. I'm suffering and that means I'm alive and as long as I'm alive God has a plan, a plan for me to grow in His magnificent grace. 

Tuesday, November 10, 2015


As a Christian my desire is to know my Savior, He is my Father after all. There is only one way to really know our Lord and that is by reading and learning the Scriptures as written in the one and only Holy Bible inspired by God Himself.  

Our experience in the Christian life must be measured by what is written in the canon, which comes from the Greek word "kanon" meaning a rule or standard. Christians can only learn the plan and will of God through diligent study of the Word of God along with prayer. 

Our hope does not come in the form of emotionalism and feeling, our hope comes from thinking and knowing the mind of Christ which is the canon of Scripture, as Paul states in 1 Corinthians 2:16 "For who has known the mind of the Lord, that he will instruct Him? But we have the mind of Christ." We cannot know our Savior personally or His will for us without His instruction as David sang in Psalm 138:2 "I will bow down toward Your holy temple and give thanks to Your name for Your lovingkindness and Your truth; For you have magnified Your word according to all Your name." God elevates His word above His name. 

Every word of the Bible is for our edification, learning it is how we grow spiritually in Christ by changing our thinking to His thinking. Without the Word of God instructing us we will never understand the "blessed hope" Paul spoke of in Titus 2:13 "looking for the blessed hope and the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Christ Jesus." 

I hope that Christians will wake up and desire to search the Word for themselves and to hear the Word of God taught from a pastor teacher who is equipped and isn't ashamed to teach the Truth to a flock that is willing to listen. We are commanded in 2 Timothy 2:15 to "Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth." 

I'll just end with this verse from Hebrews 4:12 "For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart." The Word of God is our standard for life, it is more important than food for the believer and is essential for our spiritual growth. It's always comforting to read the Psalms or Song of Solomon, delve into the mind of our Lord, the more you seek Christ the more He becomes the desire of your heart. 

Monday, November 9, 2015


I say this verse to myself every morning when I wake. I rejoice knowing my Savior has a plan for my life and each day I wake up alive I have one more opportunity to fulfill it. 

I am coming back to my blog after two years of leaving it. I am going to share my spiritual journey starting today, the day the Lord has made and I am rejoicing with gladness. Come share it with me. 


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